I
have avoided saying it, and I have suffered doing so; but finally it escapes
from me, and I even hope that my frankness will be useful to those women who,
not finding a confessor sufficient to guide them, use no discernment in their
choice of spiritual directors. I cannot cease marveling and being surprised
when I see certain people who I will not name; I open my eyes wide when I see
them; I gaze on them: they speak and I lend them my ear; I inform myself, one
tells me stories, I collect them; and I don't understand how people who seem to
me diametrically opposed to good sense, to straight reasoning, to an experience
of the world, to a knowledge of men, to the science of religion and mores,
presume that God has renewed the marvel of apostles in our day, and has
realized a miracle in their persons, rendering them capable, simple-minded and
petty spirits that they are, of directing peoples souls, the most delicate and
sublime form of governing; and if they nonetheless believe themselves born for
such an elevated task, which is so difficult and belongs to so few people, and
persuade themselves that by doing so they only exercise their natural talents
and follow an ordinary vocation, I can understand them still less.
I see very well that the taste they have for
being the depositary of family secrets, for being necessary for
reconciliations, for procuring commissions or for organizing the servants, for
finding every door open in the houses of noblemen, for eating often at large
tables, for taking carriage rides in a large city, and for making delicious
retreats to the countryside, for seeing many renowned and distinguished men be
interested in their life and health, and to manage every human interest for
others and themselves, I see very well, once again, that this alone has brought
about the specious and blameless pretexte of caring for people's souls, and
spread among society an inexhaustible nursery of spiritual directors.